Its been quite crazy. Since 1st March.
Venting it out here gives me a sense of being organised. I want to actually go back in time and look at it and analyse what had happened.
errrr..
now i'm blank.
so i think i'll just do it inside my head. Lately i've been feeling that i need to go back to my habit of going into the cave. there i dwell and probably become a bit more withdrawn. There are only so many times that you can take of being ignored no matter how many times you talk about it without becoming like a broken record being played over and over again.
At least in my cave, I can listen to my own echo, not necessarily a good thing but some sort of a necessity and a kind of defence mechanism to withstand everything that's been happening around me.
Don't get me wrong, maybe i'm pms'ing...maybe not. I'm still grateful for what I have. And everything around me is just a challenge..but i need to become stronger to withstand it all.
erghgh
