Aimless

I never felt so aimless as I did today.

I didn't even want to go out today. I just wanted to sleep and sleep and sleep.

But Azib requested me to send him to McDonald's for his schoolmate's birthday gathering. Well, since he eagerly waited for me at the door when I arrived home yesterday and told me he wanted me to send him to the said gathering, I just agreed.

The night before I went to Mamih, with a couple of friends. The turnout was good. I was surprised actually, because Vi and I always invit ed others for dinner/lunch/breakfast and never really get the desired headcount. Last night, I wasn't really that hopeful people other than me, viana and mirul to be there. BUT they came and that's good enough for me. :) However, I NEVER FELT so old as I did that night. I was tired by 9.00p.m. The night was still young. I think being swamped at work, I mean super SWAMPED at work really take out all the energy outta me. Hence the flu I got last week.

No matter how tired and sleepy I am, I kinda always wake up at around 6-7ish everyday or 8ish being the latest so far even on a non-work day. I wonder where I get the energy from. But I do know where my motivation comes from as well as my source of happiness. Only I know.

As I was saying, today was spent on sending Azib to McD and I went for a stroll at the Mall. Nothing particularly interests me there. I lost the desire to be just enjoying myself. I went to Secret Recipe. ALONE. I had Baked Cheese Cake and Banana Milkshake. After that I went to the bookshop and annoyingly the collection is saddeningly limited. I wish we have a good bookstore in Brunei.......or at least buying books from the internet won't cost so much (from the shipping cost angle) as well as the almost perfect unreliableness of the postage system here.

I watched Percy Jackson with Azib. It was a good movie, but even that had little effect on making me happy. I think my mind is really warped and tuned in to worrying about my work. I don't know.

Anyways. Enough.

Lufias

Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year

and

Happy Valentine's Day.

I'm having a writer's block. I haven't been able to come up with any idea on what to write and come up with anything brilliant to write.

So much has happened in my life. I am really grateful for what I have right now. I just realised it, that soon in May, it'd be my first year anniversary as a working man!...errgh, I am a man now! It's weird calling myself and categorising myself that, I mean I am a MAN...but that word somehow makes me realise that I am not a boy anymore. People will tend to look at and treat me seriously now. They will judge me. Any mistakes will definitely be painfully scrutinised and criticised. Any achievement will highlighted but then again any mistakes, any small mistake will tend to easily erase that.

I've been living my life as happy as I could. Eventhough I am sometimes called pemarah. I don't get it. It's so kambing..HEHEHEH I am the most cheerful person. hehehehe


Guess what, I am not having a writer's block anymore, I am fine, I can write a couple paragraphs more than a couple of paragraphs. More often than not, I will start off saying I don't have any ideas on what to write, but in the end as you can see, the ideas are flowing. And as you can see usually it will turn out into me rambling about stuff.

All in all. Life is great. Wishing things could happen earlier is a waste of time, because what's important is now. And now will definitely shape up the future. I am not sure if I understood it myself. It sounds cool enough..I think :)

Anwyays I gotta go. I think I've written quite enough