Aimless

I never felt so aimless as I did today.

I didn't even want to go out today. I just wanted to sleep and sleep and sleep.

But Azib requested me to send him to McDonald's for his schoolmate's birthday gathering. Well, since he eagerly waited for me at the door when I arrived home yesterday and told me he wanted me to send him to the said gathering, I just agreed.

The night before I went to Mamih, with a couple of friends. The turnout was good. I was surprised actually, because Vi and I always invit ed others for dinner/lunch/breakfast and never really get the desired headcount. Last night, I wasn't really that hopeful people other than me, viana and mirul to be there. BUT they came and that's good enough for me. :) However, I NEVER FELT so old as I did that night. I was tired by 9.00p.m. The night was still young. I think being swamped at work, I mean super SWAMPED at work really take out all the energy outta me. Hence the flu I got last week.

No matter how tired and sleepy I am, I kinda always wake up at around 6-7ish everyday or 8ish being the latest so far even on a non-work day. I wonder where I get the energy from. But I do know where my motivation comes from as well as my source of happiness. Only I know.

As I was saying, today was spent on sending Azib to McD and I went for a stroll at the Mall. Nothing particularly interests me there. I lost the desire to be just enjoying myself. I went to Secret Recipe. ALONE. I had Baked Cheese Cake and Banana Milkshake. After that I went to the bookshop and annoyingly the collection is saddeningly limited. I wish we have a good bookstore in Brunei.......or at least buying books from the internet won't cost so much (from the shipping cost angle) as well as the almost perfect unreliableness of the postage system here.

I watched Percy Jackson with Azib. It was a good movie, but even that had little effect on making me happy. I think my mind is really warped and tuned in to worrying about my work. I don't know.

Anyways. Enough.

Lufias