It used to be One Direction - More than this.
Now it's Plain White T's - Hate (I really really really don't like you).
Go figure.
Tuesday, June 05, 2012
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Another day
Its been quite crazy. Since 1st March.
Venting it out here gives me a sense of being organised. I want to actually go back in time and look at it and analyse what had happened.
errrr..
now i'm blank.
so i think i'll just do it inside my head. Lately i've been feeling that i need to go back to my habit of going into the cave. there i dwell and probably become a bit more withdrawn. There are only so many times that you can take of being ignored no matter how many times you talk about it without becoming like a broken record being played over and over again.
At least in my cave, I can listen to my own echo, not necessarily a good thing but some sort of a necessity and a kind of defence mechanism to withstand everything that's been happening around me.
Don't get me wrong, maybe i'm pms'ing...maybe not. I'm still grateful for what I have. And everything around me is just a challenge..but i need to become stronger to withstand it all.
erghgh
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Aimless
I never felt so aimless as I did today.
I didn't even want to go out today. I just wanted to sleep and sleep and sleep.
But Azib requested me to send him to McDonald's for his schoolmate's birthday gathering. Well, since he eagerly waited for me at the door when I arrived home yesterday and told me he wanted me to send him to the said gathering, I just agreed.
The night before I went to Mamih, with a couple of friends. The turnout was good. I was surprised actually, because Vi and I always invit ed others for dinner/lunch/breakfast and never really get the desired headcount. Last night, I wasn't really that hopeful people other than me, viana and mirul to be there. BUT they came and that's good enough for me. :) However, I NEVER FELT so old as I did that night. I was tired by 9.00p.m. The night was still young. I think being swamped at work, I mean super SWAMPED at work really take out all the energy outta me. Hence the flu I got last week.
No matter how tired and sleepy I am, I kinda always wake up at around 6-7ish everyday or 8ish being the latest so far even on a non-work day. I wonder where I get the energy from. But I do know where my motivation comes from as well as my source of happiness. Only I know.
As I was saying, today was spent on sending Azib to McD and I went for a stroll at the Mall. Nothing particularly interests me there. I lost the desire to be just enjoying myself. I went to Secret Recipe. ALONE. I had Baked Cheese Cake and Banana Milkshake. After that I went to the bookshop and annoyingly the collection is saddeningly limited. I wish we have a good bookstore in Brunei.......or at least buying books from the internet won't cost so much (from the shipping cost angle) as well as the almost perfect unreliableness of the postage system here.
I watched Percy Jackson with Azib. It was a good movie, but even that had little effect on making me happy. I think my mind is really warped and tuned in to worrying about my work. I don't know.
Anyways. Enough.
Lufias
I didn't even want to go out today. I just wanted to sleep and sleep and sleep.
But Azib requested me to send him to McDonald's for his schoolmate's birthday gathering. Well, since he eagerly waited for me at the door when I arrived home yesterday and told me he wanted me to send him to the said gathering, I just agreed.
The night before I went to Mamih, with a couple of friends. The turnout was good. I was surprised actually, because Vi and I always invit ed others for dinner/lunch/breakfast and never really get the desired headcount. Last night, I wasn't really that hopeful people other than me, viana and mirul to be there. BUT they came and that's good enough for me. :) However, I NEVER FELT so old as I did that night. I was tired by 9.00p.m. The night was still young. I think being swamped at work, I mean super SWAMPED at work really take out all the energy outta me. Hence the flu I got last week.
No matter how tired and sleepy I am, I kinda always wake up at around 6-7ish everyday or 8ish being the latest so far even on a non-work day. I wonder where I get the energy from. But I do know where my motivation comes from as well as my source of happiness. Only I know.
As I was saying, today was spent on sending Azib to McD and I went for a stroll at the Mall. Nothing particularly interests me there. I lost the desire to be just enjoying myself. I went to Secret Recipe. ALONE. I had Baked Cheese Cake and Banana Milkshake. After that I went to the bookshop and annoyingly the collection is saddeningly limited. I wish we have a good bookstore in Brunei.......or at least buying books from the internet won't cost so much (from the shipping cost angle) as well as the almost perfect unreliableness of the postage system here.
I watched Percy Jackson with Azib. It was a good movie, but even that had little effect on making me happy. I think my mind is really warped and tuned in to worrying about my work. I don't know.
Anyways. Enough.
Lufias
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year
Happy Chinese New Year
and
Happy Valentine's Day.
I'm having a writer's block. I haven't been able to come up with any idea on what to write and come up with anything brilliant to write.
So much has happened in my life. I am really grateful for what I have right now. I just realised it, that soon in May, it'd be my first year anniversary as a working man!...errgh, I am a man now! It's weird calling myself and categorising myself that, I mean I am a MAN...but that word somehow makes me realise that I am not a boy anymore. People will tend to look at and treat me seriously now. They will judge me. Any mistakes will definitely be painfully scrutinised and criticised. Any achievement will highlighted but then again any mistakes, any small mistake will tend to easily erase that.
I've been living my life as happy as I could. Eventhough I am sometimes called pemarah. I don't get it. It's so kambing..HEHEHEH I am the most cheerful person. hehehehe
Guess what, I am not having a writer's block anymore, I am fine, I can write a couple paragraphs more than a couple of paragraphs. More often than not, I will start off saying I don't have any ideas on what to write, but in the end as you can see, the ideas are flowing. And as you can see usually it will turn out into me rambling about stuff.
All in all. Life is great. Wishing things could happen earlier is a waste of time, because what's important is now. And now will definitely shape up the future. I am not sure if I understood it myself. It sounds cool enough..I think :)
Anwyays I gotta go. I think I've written quite enough
and
Happy Valentine's Day.
I'm having a writer's block. I haven't been able to come up with any idea on what to write and come up with anything brilliant to write.
So much has happened in my life. I am really grateful for what I have right now. I just realised it, that soon in May, it'd be my first year anniversary as a working man!...errgh, I am a man now! It's weird calling myself and categorising myself that, I mean I am a MAN...but that word somehow makes me realise that I am not a boy anymore. People will tend to look at and treat me seriously now. They will judge me. Any mistakes will definitely be painfully scrutinised and criticised. Any achievement will highlighted but then again any mistakes, any small mistake will tend to easily erase that.
I've been living my life as happy as I could. Eventhough I am sometimes called pemarah. I don't get it. It's so kambing..HEHEHEH I am the most cheerful person. hehehehe
Guess what, I am not having a writer's block anymore, I am fine, I can write a couple paragraphs more than a couple of paragraphs. More often than not, I will start off saying I don't have any ideas on what to write, but in the end as you can see, the ideas are flowing. And as you can see usually it will turn out into me rambling about stuff.
All in all. Life is great. Wishing things could happen earlier is a waste of time, because what's important is now. And now will definitely shape up the future. I am not sure if I understood it myself. It sounds cool enough..I think :)
Anwyays I gotta go. I think I've written quite enough
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Amazed by Honey Bee and Cigarettes.
Dear Honey Bee,
You told me you weren’t gonna drink tonight but you went to a bar. Honey Bee, I called you over and over…but I think you missed my calls. Now your clothes smell like cigarettes, and I know you don’t smoke at all… and I hope it won’t happen again another time.
But Honey Bee, that’s alright…because everything that you do never fails to amaze me. No matter what, your Honey Bee here loves you the way you are even if it means standing up against the Queen. I want to put my arms all around you, and surround you…and touch every place in your heart.
Honey Bee, I want to spend the whole night in your arms…I don’t know what you do what you do; But I am so in love with you, and it just keeps getting better.
Honey Bee, I’m amazed by you. You readily accept others’ flaws but seem too harsh on yourself. But Honey Bee, listen to me…you’re perfect as you are and that’s all you need to know. This Honey Bee will accept you no matter what, for better or worse – Even if the colony shuns you, took away all your stripes and have your wings broken off. This Honey Bee will come and save you and Honey Bee I just wanna spend my life by your side...forever and ever.
Yours,
Honey Bee.
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The above words and sentences aren’t originally..I’ve taken bits and pieces from 3 songs that are my current favorite and put them together and make a story out of it. Whaddya think?? Ehehe I don’t usually have favorite songs – because I think it’s unfair for the other songs ahahaha.
You told me you weren’t gonna drink tonight but you went to a bar. Honey Bee, I called you over and over…but I think you missed my calls. Now your clothes smell like cigarettes, and I know you don’t smoke at all… and I hope it won’t happen again another time.
But Honey Bee, that’s alright…because everything that you do never fails to amaze me. No matter what, your Honey Bee here loves you the way you are even if it means standing up against the Queen. I want to put my arms all around you, and surround you…and touch every place in your heart.
Honey Bee, I want to spend the whole night in your arms…I don’t know what you do what you do; But I am so in love with you, and it just keeps getting better.
Honey Bee, I’m amazed by you. You readily accept others’ flaws but seem too harsh on yourself. But Honey Bee, listen to me…you’re perfect as you are and that’s all you need to know. This Honey Bee will accept you no matter what, for better or worse – Even if the colony shuns you, took away all your stripes and have your wings broken off. This Honey Bee will come and save you and Honey Bee I just wanna spend my life by your side...forever and ever.
Yours,
Honey Bee.
___________________________________________________________________________________
The above words and sentences aren’t originally..I’ve taken bits and pieces from 3 songs that are my current favorite and put them together and make a story out of it. Whaddya think?? Ehehe I don’t usually have favorite songs – because I think it’s unfair for the other songs ahahaha.
The three songs are from
1) Zee Avi – Honey Bee
2) Daniel Merriweather - Cigarettes
3) Lonestar – Amaze
Go Google them, or Youtube them..ehehhe.
Yours,
Lufias
Friday, January 08, 2010
Luminox
(disclaimer: I claim no ownership of the photo above, if the relevant people want me to take it off please feel free to drop me a line and I'd be happy to remove it from this page. thanks)
I am the proud owner of Luminox Blackout watch..hehehehe Google it for more info. Im enjoying this masterpiece...on my wrist! Retail Price B$1599. My first ever expensive watch. That's why I published the price. ahahhaha :D and I'm happy.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Hear ye Hear ye
Taking the time off from work seems the logical thing to do now. Being a workaholic like the rest of my colleagues seem to be beneficial…really beneficial. BUT. It does put a strain on my physical and emotional self…by that I mean, I am not a robot, I do get tired.
You (I) do work, and the pay not that excellent (still good) but worth it. Because in the end you (I) know you’ve (I’ve) earned the right to spend it OR save it, put it in a Fixed Deposit account or just simply let it sit in the bank.
However, this doesn’t really apply to everyone. People work to get paid. That’s all there is to it. Some people may argue that ‘why put more effort if you’re not paid that much’. True. True. People have opinions of their own. No rights or wrongs. Just two sides of different opinions. Two polar opposites, bi-polar (to borrow a word from Ian).
My opinion, work hard now…pray hard, achieve, and achieve more…play fair/hard…make friends (+ a few jealous, undeserving enemies), lose some friends because you’ve grown apart…but in the end, God willing, you’ll be rewarded with what you want or dreamed of – a good life or a better one because you work hard for it and strive to get where you are at that point of life in future. Now who doesn’t want a good life/better one than they have right now? Always the formula for that one is work hard. (this doesn’t apply to mega rich people ehhehe).
I am at a point in my life where every decision and every step I make is crucial…Financial decision, Life decision..etc etc…but one thing is clear to me. I need to achieve more, improve myself in terms of academic achievement. Get myself a masters’ degree, an ACCA qualification…all these before I turn 30. I’ve been to three great wonders…these are enough for now. Great Wall, Angkor Wat and Eiffel Tower, the first two through luck and the last when I was studying in the UK….I might add somemore along the years to come... To Taj Mahal. To the Pyramids in Egypt/Giza…where else? I’ll google them nanti.
The year is 2010. If you add the numbers 20 and 10 together they sum up to 30…so that means? Nothing hahaha just wanna do some cool (is it?) random thoughts of maths. I love (I think ‘like’ would be a better word) adding numbers...normal manageable numbers just to keep my brain active enough. Try doing it. It’s good. Ahahah Coming back to 2010. It’s New Year. I don’t actually do the ritual of promising myself this and that (i.e Resolution). I don’t bother having them…down the line; I prefer to remind myself to be better this year than the last year. Because if I promise this and that, I might not be able to reach that goal, don’t get me wrong and say I’m a non-committal person. I am not a non-committal being. Once I commit myself to something, I’ll do it. We never know unless we give it a try right? Ehehhe Sometimes jumping into something is a great way to find out whether it’s good for me. And often times than not I usually get the result what I wanted. Like you’ve been holding back for a long time, you mull it over for a few years and you almost gave up but then once you give it a go…walla! It’s actually great. But don’t go back regretting it that you wished you’ve done it earlier, because everything has a place and proper time for it. But more like perfect timing.
2009 was a great year for me. I achieved the status of being employed in the month of February. Then unemployed for a month…then employed again and until now I’ve got a good job. I’m not satisfied yet, but as I said, will look for more to achieve. I am happy. In fact, much happier with everything. I named my car Sputnik…it is a cool name. I, of course has the best sense in everything...:)
Ooh, I didn’t know what to spend my first bonus on at first…but now I know what to get myself and splurge on. I’ll tell you once I have it.
For now that’s it, I gotta go.
Sputnik, Myself and I.
take care
Lufias.
You (I) do work, and the pay not that excellent (still good) but worth it. Because in the end you (I) know you’ve (I’ve) earned the right to spend it OR save it, put it in a Fixed Deposit account or just simply let it sit in the bank.
However, this doesn’t really apply to everyone. People work to get paid. That’s all there is to it. Some people may argue that ‘why put more effort if you’re not paid that much’. True. True. People have opinions of their own. No rights or wrongs. Just two sides of different opinions. Two polar opposites, bi-polar (to borrow a word from Ian).
My opinion, work hard now…pray hard, achieve, and achieve more…play fair/hard…make friends (+ a few jealous, undeserving enemies), lose some friends because you’ve grown apart…but in the end, God willing, you’ll be rewarded with what you want or dreamed of – a good life or a better one because you work hard for it and strive to get where you are at that point of life in future. Now who doesn’t want a good life/better one than they have right now? Always the formula for that one is work hard. (this doesn’t apply to mega rich people ehhehe).
I am at a point in my life where every decision and every step I make is crucial…Financial decision, Life decision..etc etc…but one thing is clear to me. I need to achieve more, improve myself in terms of academic achievement. Get myself a masters’ degree, an ACCA qualification…all these before I turn 30. I’ve been to three great wonders…these are enough for now. Great Wall, Angkor Wat and Eiffel Tower, the first two through luck and the last when I was studying in the UK….I might add somemore along the years to come... To Taj Mahal. To the Pyramids in Egypt/Giza…where else? I’ll google them nanti.
The year is 2010. If you add the numbers 20 and 10 together they sum up to 30…so that means? Nothing hahaha just wanna do some cool (is it?) random thoughts of maths. I love (I think ‘like’ would be a better word) adding numbers...normal manageable numbers just to keep my brain active enough. Try doing it. It’s good. Ahahah Coming back to 2010. It’s New Year. I don’t actually do the ritual of promising myself this and that (i.e Resolution). I don’t bother having them…down the line; I prefer to remind myself to be better this year than the last year. Because if I promise this and that, I might not be able to reach that goal, don’t get me wrong and say I’m a non-committal person. I am not a non-committal being. Once I commit myself to something, I’ll do it. We never know unless we give it a try right? Ehehhe Sometimes jumping into something is a great way to find out whether it’s good for me. And often times than not I usually get the result what I wanted. Like you’ve been holding back for a long time, you mull it over for a few years and you almost gave up but then once you give it a go…walla! It’s actually great. But don’t go back regretting it that you wished you’ve done it earlier, because everything has a place and proper time for it. But more like perfect timing.
2009 was a great year for me. I achieved the status of being employed in the month of February. Then unemployed for a month…then employed again and until now I’ve got a good job. I’m not satisfied yet, but as I said, will look for more to achieve. I am happy. In fact, much happier with everything. I named my car Sputnik…it is a cool name. I, of course has the best sense in everything...:)
Ooh, I didn’t know what to spend my first bonus on at first…but now I know what to get myself and splurge on. I’ll tell you once I have it.
For now that’s it, I gotta go.
Sputnik, Myself and I.
take care
Lufias.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
I got this funny idea.
Youtube is a great source for funny videos. You'd be surprise how creative people are. It never cease to amuse me. One of my favourite vids are the parodies for Beyonce's single ladies video. like these ones:
this one's a bit on the naughty side :D
this one's a bit on the naughty side :D
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Foods.
Im stuffed.
^_^
Alhamdulillah.
You see, my department organised Tahlil ceremony in the morning. It was pot luck. Everyone brought their own food. Plus a catering of nasi lemak with rendangs and all. All in all, LOADS of FOOD were served. None goes to waste though. Cos right after, in the afternoon, during cleaning up. All the extra food are 'tapau'ed eheheh
Alhamdulillah.
anyways
Ahlan wa Sahlan ya Ramadhan~
^_^
ciao. LUFIAS
^_^
Alhamdulillah.
You see, my department organised Tahlil ceremony in the morning. It was pot luck. Everyone brought their own food. Plus a catering of nasi lemak with rendangs and all. All in all, LOADS of FOOD were served. None goes to waste though. Cos right after, in the afternoon, during cleaning up. All the extra food are 'tapau'ed eheheh
Alhamdulillah.
anyways
Ahlan wa Sahlan ya Ramadhan~
^_^
ciao. LUFIAS
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Me yapping about stuff
I haven’t been able to post anything solid for the past few weeks or months. I don’t know. I lost track of blogging time. I’m adjusted to work life now. The only thing I don’t like doing is ironing my work clothes. As well as washing them. But I HAVE to do it. *sigh* I don’t mind waking up early in the morning. It depends on how late I slept the previous night. The only reason why I like to wake up early for work every morning is because I hate the sense of rushing + I hate being caught in traffic, trapped with other people who are in a rush as well as rude drivers…bla bla bla… :D
Work things? Don’t ask. It will never finish. It does get a bit monotonous for a while. But I suppose it’s okay. As long as I do my tasks…complete whatever I can..and I’m good to go.
Oh yea, the festive season is just around the corner. By festive, I mean the Puasa Month will either be this Friday or Saturday. Excited, the first time I’ll be fasting during working. Ehhehe and already the raya cakes lists are being distributed. I’ve got just under 10 lists…the question is which one is nice. Everyone claims they’re nice. Buy them all then?? HAHA crazy! Abis duit krg!!
...Life? It’s good. I’m coping. I’m single – no intention yet to change this. I’m not in a hurry. But I do sense pressure from family members asking me when and when and when. Sabar. I’ve got my own time line. Furthermore, guys don’t really expire that soon (sorry ladies) ehehhe. The thing is I don’t wanna be tied down, I just finished school. I just started work. I need to enjoy for a bit. Let’s say 3-5 years of single hood, that should give people an indication as to when I’m gonna settle down. :D no hurry. If I’m meant to settle down sooner, then I will. For the time being, Im gonna concentrate on what’s in front of me. WORK. ACHIEVE MORE. Make parents happy. Hmmm I think that’s all.
What else I’m gonna say. I think that’s it for now :D
Oh yea…loving the mini cooper. LOVE IT. HONK me if you’re near me :D
Work things? Don’t ask. It will never finish. It does get a bit monotonous for a while. But I suppose it’s okay. As long as I do my tasks…complete whatever I can..and I’m good to go.
Oh yea, the festive season is just around the corner. By festive, I mean the Puasa Month will either be this Friday or Saturday. Excited, the first time I’ll be fasting during working. Ehhehe and already the raya cakes lists are being distributed. I’ve got just under 10 lists…the question is which one is nice. Everyone claims they’re nice. Buy them all then?? HAHA crazy! Abis duit krg!!
...Life? It’s good. I’m coping. I’m single – no intention yet to change this. I’m not in a hurry. But I do sense pressure from family members asking me when and when and when. Sabar. I’ve got my own time line. Furthermore, guys don’t really expire that soon (sorry ladies) ehehhe. The thing is I don’t wanna be tied down, I just finished school. I just started work. I need to enjoy for a bit. Let’s say 3-5 years of single hood, that should give people an indication as to when I’m gonna settle down. :D no hurry. If I’m meant to settle down sooner, then I will. For the time being, Im gonna concentrate on what’s in front of me. WORK. ACHIEVE MORE. Make parents happy. Hmmm I think that’s all.
What else I’m gonna say. I think that’s it for now :D
Oh yea…loving the mini cooper. LOVE IT. HONK me if you’re near me :D
Massage..
I love massages.
it relaxes me.
Last night, i gave Zen Spa a go.
It was good. Massage was okey..But i gotta recommend it for those who're looking for a relaxation retreat. Pamper yourself. I chose the aromatherapy massage...worth it. next time i go there, im gonna try the Spa Package...what have i gotta lose :D
Furthermore, im not hard to please...so i totally got super relaxed until now. My stress for the whole month and previous months gone. Not totally gone. but it relieves me of the built up tension....:D
nyaaaa~~~ ehehhe
it relaxes me.
Last night, i gave Zen Spa a go.
It was good. Massage was okey..But i gotta recommend it for those who're looking for a relaxation retreat. Pamper yourself. I chose the aromatherapy massage...worth it. next time i go there, im gonna try the Spa Package...what have i gotta lose :D
Furthermore, im not hard to please...so i totally got super relaxed until now. My stress for the whole month and previous months gone. Not totally gone. but it relieves me of the built up tension....:D
nyaaaa~~~ ehehhe
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Beach Buddy
i love this picture. ahahah i look less fat! :D
taken during a reunion/gathering of the ex-MS ppl...frens to the end i suppose.
the picture is taken with one of my closest fren in MS...Bukhari. (accidentally, i grabbed the picture from his blog. hahaha)
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Done.
Im done for the first half of the day. :D ehhehe not that i can finish all the work in a day. but at least i completed my scheduled task for the first half of the day. that's why i have a lil bit of time to blog :D
gotta set what to do this afternoon :D
anyways. IM LOVING MY Mini so so so much!! :D
hehehe
take care
Lufias!
gotta set what to do this afternoon :D
anyways. IM LOVING MY Mini so so so much!! :D
hehehe
take care
Lufias!
Friday, June 19, 2009
MC is mine!!
:D
:D
BIG GRIN!!
im the humble owner of a MINI COOPER!
yeay!
it's kinda a belated birthday present from ME to ME...it's my present for all the years that i havent given myself - since 1984 :D ehehhe
19/06/2009
Lufias :D ehehhe
(maybe i'll post real pictures of it in some other posts.. ehhehe)
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Motivation
IM SUPER MOTIVATED TO DO WORK TODAY! ahahha
well, yesterday was a MONDAY. hence I didnt feel 'that' motivated yesterday ehhehe
ciao peepz.
and take care
lufias
well, yesterday was a MONDAY. hence I didnt feel 'that' motivated yesterday ehhehe
ciao peepz.
and take care
lufias
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