Yea..

I wanna go home.

Another winter day
has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
and i wanna go home

let me go home...

CKIN2U

PG15
(my attempt to restrict those who are not of mature age to view the following video)
do not proceed if you're below the above age...i won't be held responsible

-oh yea..you can pause the song, before you view the video-

CKIN2U PUB FR

I seem to be staring more at...

i seem to be staring more at my notes than digesting it into my brain...lots have been playing in my mind..but surely happy thoughts! ehhehe

i'm enjoying the CKIN2U perfume, enjoying the memory of people calling me, my aunts and friends who wished me happy bday (thank you so much)..my surprise bday party (i can't get over it yet, im still happy)...enjoying my time..and can't keep stopping myself form thinking of going home (June...yeay!!!...)

but before that i have to pack and worry about moving house..(yeah...we're moving house)...i hate packing..but experience has thought me ways of packing ehehehe...packing is very annoying for me..some might feel it okay to pack their stuff into their luggages..but i don't feel okay, what i mean is...it's annoying! ehhehe that's the only thing that comes into my mind..annoyance..and why am i talking about packing? ehheeh nevermind. Etiquette of moving house: make sure you pay all the utility bills, inform to everyone (especially your banks or mobile telephone providers) that you're moving..or settle all debts...(i'm a bit bitter here...because of several things...the previous people who lived in this house (our house is some kind of studeng housing area) by large left an outstanding bills unpaid..and every morning, letters from various agencies will arrive at our doors..and we the current tenants have to deal with these letters...we took the effort to send it back to the senders..and after several months of this..we just got tired and our common room shelve is full of their letters!! how rude is that..or how inconsiderate...i might have ruled that they might had actually forgot to settle everything but it's getting on my nerve! ahha..so by any chance, if the one who's reading this is the previous tenant in this house '21 Havelock'....im outta words...enuff i don't wanna talk about it...moving on...

i just realised that i have this habit of putting 'ehhehe' when im typing..why? i don't know...in reality i do this too...but with my laughter/snicker or sumthing related to it...not all the time but most of the time...no one might realised it..either because they're used to it..or i don't do it..i think they're used to it. :) ehhehe
is it wrong to be cheerful? i don't know. like i said...smiling is good! :D until your face got pretty 'kejang' (eheheh roughly translated hmmm trying to translate...hmm...okay i give up! i can't translate it)

hmmm maybe i should stare back at my notes...im quite worried cause im stuck with just two chapters...and i have 5 more days before my next paper! :S hehe i should be worried..and i want to keep my promise i made to my mum...:) hehehe mum i love you :) and all my family i love you all! i love my dad and brothers..especially the lil one..ehhee you wanna know? he's my globe of sun whenever there are thunderclouds looming above me...:) miss him! hehe miss spoiling him too! ehhehe what to do? im 23 and he's 6...someone's gotta spoil him! eheheh

Right here waiting..

...you got me going crazy

:)

this post is just a reflection of what i'm feeling at the moment...it might be a fleeting feeling...just there for a second..it might be a perennial one...gonna last till who knows when :)

well people that's it...i ain't gonna elaborate :)

HEheheheh :)

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy!

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy!

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

i will be right here waiting...

23!

Officially today 26th May 2007, I turned 23 years old! :)

Okay wat! :)

Thank You to all of you who sent me birthday greetings! No matter where you guys are. You all are the best! (i think my eyes are getting watery...errr...) ehheh yea just a bit. :)

I just miss my family back home :( I wish they are here with me now! But it's alright...
b
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e.....I got a surprised bday celebration!!! By none other than...my HOUSEMATES @ 21 Havelock! (the girls - Rush, Mizah, Fish and Mai,the boys - Azmi and Lei) You guys are the best!...I love the present...ehhehe CKIN2U perfume..I LOVE IT..I LOVE IT..I LOVE IT!
(another passion of mine...perfumes! go ask chea kee, when i was shopping during boxing day! ehhe interlude here...at Harrods Knightbridge..ehehe i spent the whole morning at the perfumes section with every fingers on my hand and hers smelling of different perfumes..no wonder we got high afterwards!) eheheh back to my bday! they cooked buttermilk chicken, they cooked potatoes, stir fried veggies, cornsoup, and made cocktail jelly...and all of them are nice...made with their hearts for me!!! ehhhe i love it i love it...and they bought me a chocolate cake..how nice! yummy..thank you again guys!!!! i heart you all to pieces...

after that we watched Fun with Dick and Jane...a cool movie...well i guess it's a movie suitable for us accountants (and those who are dealing with finance...bla bla somewhere along this line)...it's a good movie! a good ethical rebuke to those who are unethical in the financial world...:)

and that wraps up my birthday celebration..

huh? not much you say? nothing special you say?

first of all..it's my bday celebration!! and the efforts of those people who put their hearts in it which count the most!! it's a blast!! it's more than special..to me its grandiose...its outlandish..lavish even..!!

:)

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smile - smile always because you'll never know whose heart you will capture! :)

Movies

I'm gonna do a bit of promotion here...since i am a movie goer - meaning i like to watch movies (dohh!) ehhe but i like to watch movies in cinemas...i don't know why but yea..it's one of the things that i like to do back at home..and once i'm home going to the cinemas will be one of the top things for me to do...here...i wanna watch pirates of the carribean 3,

photo taken from Klubbkidd

i wanna watch the coming harry potter movie, and lots lots lots of any movies coming out within the period of june, july, august and september...

and here's one poster of a Malaysian movie that I wanna watch :), this movie will be showing in all cinemas Brunei, Malaysia and Singapore on 28th June 2007...

DIVA
starred by Ning Baizura
photo courtesy of Mr Manager
taken from his blog

and here's the trailer



and another movie that i wanna watch is directed by the- err..(hmm i dunno how to describe her) Yasmin Ahmad and her movies were quite good! one of the best! remember sepet? sepet2? muhsin? and presenting to you her latest art-Muallaf, i don't know when it will be premiering but...just wanna keep you guys posted..wanna know about it? you can go to this link.

well guys and girls...enjoy!

the day before 'last'

Will this be my last post?

NO la...i love this blog so much i can't see it ending.

Contrary to the word 'last' i mentioned in the title...this post shall be the beginning of a new me..not entirely new...i just hope 'age' can do me justice here...what i meant by this is...today is my last day being 22 years old...AHAHH NO NO NO NO! ehehhe no lah..its okay..i accepted the fact that i'm going to be 23 years old just last night..ehehe or was it this morning at 2a.m. after watching Nobuta Wo Produce with my housemates.. (i got them HOOKED...i hope they enjoyed it) ehhehe well anyways..yea it's a fact..time moves without waiting for anyone..no one has been granted the power to stop time yet...so time still moves on..and that brings me to accept the fact i am GOING to be 23 years old exactly 12.00midnight tonight...

and also the fact that, im not alone in this world..i have my loving family (miss you all)...i have my bestfriends (you know who you guys are!), i have my housemates, i have my friends all around me..what more can i ask?..i just wish that everyone will be happy..and as happy as i am having them as my treasured ones!

hahaha..

yesterday...~ ehehhe i tried to sing the song but i'm so out of tune and i can't remember the lyrics after 'yesterday'..okay trying to get into mood here.

yesterday, was my first exam (not my 'first' first) but my first exam this semester. It was kinda acceptably easy..no surprises in terms of the questions. It felt kinda good answering all those questions..heheh i felt really (not clever)..but satisfied with how my revision on that particular subject was..overall..im grateful! now..i should be starting to revise for my next paper MGT227, Issues in Corporate Governance. which i am going to sit for next week (1st june)

wish me luck ya!

heehe

also...something sorta happened to me. I lost three boxes of fish fingers and 2 packets of my digestive biscuits...arghgh..i bought them at TESCO..right after the paper/exam..ehehe just wanna buy sumthing to munch...but i lost them! and i asked my housemates who were with if they've seen it..but no..they didnt...but luckily hehehe and Lei (i am sorry..i have to put this up..ehehe it's kinda funny and im not mad about it)..found it at Yafai (the halal international food convenient store just around the corner) ehehhe basically, after the exam was over..we (the housemates - 7 of us) went shopping at TESCO...and at the end of the shopping..i asked one of the guys to help me carry one of my plastic bags..and on the way home, Lei and Azmi went to Yafai. Apparently, my three boxes of fish fingers and 2 packets of digestive biscuits were left there (by either one of em)! ehhehe It's okay im not mad...eheh and thank you for recovering it and carrying it again! ahahah

now i can eat my fish fingers and munch those digestives! (it's a good bargain what!, 3 for 2pounds)..oh..my shopping was light yesterday..i just bought a pack of TESCO Thin and Crispy Fries for 88p, two slices of smoked salmon each for 99p, three packs of TESCO Fish Fingers each boxes for 49p...that's all...ehhehe cheap eh..compared to my previous shopping spree! ehehhe

anyways..i gotta end this post soon..

thank you for reading it.

hahah i love you all!
cheers..

p/s: i had smoked salmon and fries for lunch today! ehehhe nyum nyum! hehehe

just that...and this..

I have lost my motivation. Where has it gone?

Nope...i have no idea whatsoever where it has gone.. :(

i wanna sleep and i wanna breeze through uni without ever sitting for any examinations anymore!

don't mind me. I'm just bored! and I desperately need something to release my stress...smiling doesn't work at the moment. :) hahahaha what can release my stress? maybe i'll go buy some chocolate bars...or i don't know...*sigh*

well this is gonna be a short post. and short it will remain...unless i want to lengthen it to a considerable length..

okay...maybe i'm gonna do a lil update on Akademi Fantasia 5 (just a lil update)...

Okay two of my favourite Dafi and Shawal were voted out (not enough votes aka lowest votes)...BUT another favourite that i rooted for since several concerts - MILA...becomes the first female winner for that star-talent search cum reality show...cool eh. ehhehe

that's it for the update. eheheh

and perhaps..i should go back and stare blankly at my notes...now im on chapter four/lecture four (about Financial management and strategic decisions)...

p/s: oren ;) hehehe

Ends in themselves

This particular theory fascinated me and i will ramble upon it...no no no not ramble reflect upon it and give my twenty three million and twenty six dollars and five cents about it ehhehe

it says that Immanuel Kant in 1785 believed that individuals had equal moral worth in that they were capable of independently deciding right from wrong and acting accordingly. hence, we need to respect people as "ends in themselves" and we are devaluing them if we treat them merely as instruments or exclusively as means to an end.

did you get what it mean? ehhehe i think (i only dare to think and it's only my opinion) that in simple words...don't take advantage of others - dont treat them as means to an end. I kinda agree with this statement...most of us sometimes felt the need to use others to achieve what we want...no matter how we twist and turn, our inner motive will always want to get ourselves in the upper hand. Heheh not that i'm saying it's wrong to do so...it's morally incorrect. There is no sincerity if we do that.

I admit, i do that sometimes..but not always..there is a limit to it and I surely hate the guilt for using friends. When i was young-ish..ehehe teenager! ehhe im NOT OLD YET! (im still youthful) ehehhe and when i reflected upon my life then...i kinda do these things..but now...im sure my friends are not just instruments to achieve what i want...they're there for their own benefit of supporting me in my achieving what i want in life..they are my motivators! ahahah well some would just bring me down...but i dont give a cent to these type of friends...if you can call them friends. ahahha

the fact is...in life...i'd rather have friends who are true in everything..HONESTY! blunt (their words might hurt - but its worth it), straight forward...not beating around the bush...or just say you're doing alright when in fact IM NOT DOING ALRIGHT! ahahaha...well not too harsh on the blunt side and straight forward but enough to make me realise...

my point is...(do i have a point?) i dont know! hehehe well let's see...i'm the type of what certain people call spend-thrift...thrifty on the money side...(like to spend money) ehhehe but that's just me....(i think im going off tangent here)...no no i'm not rich...retail therapy more like it. ehhehe shopaholic level zero. ehhehe :) okay..do you see my point? i cant even see my point..ehehe so erghghgh

okay...i'll try once again...the fact is, in life its immoral to use others to achieve what you think will benefit you in the end...an example here. donating blood - you know its good to donate blood because its gonna help others right...but in the corner of your heart you know that you dont really care if its gonna help others, you just want to have personal satisfaction and it's healthy to donate once in a while...(something about your body producing fresh red blood cell - which keeps you healthy or sumthing, correct me if im wrong)...definitely don't do this..don't try to act good because you know by acting good you want to lead others to think that you're good (you see my point?) in other words: be yourself! you don't need to fool others. don't come up with a reason if you don't want to help, don't try to even logically reason that by using your friends for your own benefit is a good thing, (jangan ambil kesempatan - sorry i cant seem to translate this)...hmmm what else...i really like this theory..that's why i'm blogging about it..and giving it my as above mentioned cents..ehehe...

this has nothing to do with people in my life (yeah right!) ehhehe but yea...i'm not writing it about anyone...it might be - but it's just a coincidence...after all i don't know what others are doing and thinking...if they do the above - using others as means to their ends...well my advise is STOP IT! you're being selfish...KARIT (roughly translated - stingy) and inconsiderate and incorrigible human being...ahahah okay...

with that....

im done! ahahha actually i'm supposed to read through chapter one in my upcoming Issues in Financial Management exam..but i stumble across this piece of theory in one of the journal articles im reading so...it got my brain started! so i wanna blog about it and i did! and now im gonna end it..and continue studying...i will share if you want to..ehehe

buhbye now!

p/s: i watched nobuta wo produce! and i cant wait to watch again with my housemates :D ehhehe ehehhe after exams..ehehe

Examination month...

why does it have to be in may??? why why why? ehhehe i'm bitter because on my birthday i'll be doing revision! haiyo! how? what to do? i dont know! nevermind study more important i suppose..hhe

my exams are on:

24th May 2007 :
MGT213 - Issues in Financial Management

26th May 2007:
12.00midnight : My 23rd Birthday...huhuuuhuhuwarghghhg - it's small cause i dont feel like celebrating :(

1st June 2007:
MGT227 - Issues in Corporate Governance

7th June 2007:
MGT225 - Financial Accounting

Good luck everyone...and happy revising...and to my housemates and the rest of my batch from brunei...good luck on monday! your first exam eheheh